The Scarf Witch

I’ve been strongly feeling the pull of my lunar nodes.  Our lunar nodes are always in opposites signs and houses, and it is said that the south node is where we are coming from (past lives if you believe in that), and the north node is what we are growing towards.

My lunar nodes are
North: Cancer in 11th house
South: Capricorn 5th house

Capricorn’s Saturian discipline, hard work and ambition is opposed by Cancer’s nurturing and supportive moon energy.

Add in that my moon also happens to be in Capricorn, and that they reside in the 5th house (personal pleasure and joy in life).  Here’s a huge part of my addiction to pain.   Thinking that hard work overcomes all.  That’s where I feel at a deep level that is the pathway to success.  Anything good must go through the needle of pain and if it isn’t hard, it isn’t worth it.  And if you are complaining, you just aren’t working hard enough.

Lots of people have NN Cancer/SN Capricorn – but you know who else was a Taurus Sun and Capricorn Moon with these nodes? Yea, Hitler.  So… what’s the trick?  How does one break free of the stubborn ambition of Capricorn? How do you not just plow down everyone in your path to overcontrol the world around you?

Love.  Everywhere I turn right now, I am overwhelmed by how more clearly the answer is just love. 

The softness of Cancer is not weak – love and opening up does not destabilize.  Love expands.   The more there is, the more that is available.  It is not a finite resource.   The ambition and building and the all of the hard-work of Capricorn is focused so strongly in a straight line that it cannot imagine that anything shared can multiply. 

Capricorn has the energy of the 10th house – career, goals, very masculine active productive energy. 

Cancer has the energy of the 4th house – roots, the home, very feminine comforting energy.

Capricorn is terrified of letting the structure down, even though it feels like it is very strong and can accomplish anything.   It’s so much easier to see when it seems people are afraid of hard work.  But that’s just seeing it through Capricorn eyes  – Cancer seems like it is filled with non-active naïve whimsy.   Looking deeper, though, stepping on the side of Cancer for a moment, it rejoices in the ease of love and beauty.  And yea, especially from a Capricorn perspective, Cancer is prissy and not willing to get their hands dirty.   Flip that around, and “hello Capricorn!  You don’t always have to have dirty hands.”    Slow down, and see the beauty.   Allow love to flow through.

I think all of this is compounded by the house positions of my nodes.   The 11th house is the house of community  and support compared to the 5th house of personal expression and pleasure.   In fact – throughout the interwebs, may people associate the 5th and 11th house with love in general, and so of course that is how or why I’m finding that the way through.    So the magic in the 11th house Cancer is in finding that sharing love isn’t about hard work at all – it is truly about sharing and allowing it all in.    Relaxing and letting go takes a different kind of strength, and I’m grateful for those in my life that are demonstrating the wonder and beauty in being.

I have a strong amount of duality in my natal chart, but everyone has lunar nodes that are dual in their very nature.

I’ve known my nodes for a while, but it really took a while for their lessons to flow into my body.  I’d highly recommend getting to know your lunar nodes to find a hint of balance in your life.